Posted in Covid, Hiatus, Informational

The Condensed Version of Why I was MIA

It’s been a while. I kept trying to say that I would be back blogging, but there were so many compounding things.

Covid-19: I wanted to be one of those people who was super productive during Covid not realizing how changes might effect mood. I’m an introvert by nature and it felt like ‘no big deal’….til it was. I ossicilated between being feeling like nothing was changing and I was stuck to making a lot of headway last year. I made all this progress, but felt isolated…it’s not a good headspace to write from.

Changing Jobs: When I first went on radio silence I had just left a position, my first real infosec position and there was a period of like 3 weeks where I technically had a job, but wasn’t working. I did not know how panicky not having a steady income would be (even with savings), but it was….when you’re money is funny you are not in a place to blog.

Contracting is for the Birds: This came later, there was a period where I transitioned from subcontracting to contracting and thay was stressful. There was poor communication and a back and forth on whether I needed to find a new job, so basically I was back to panicking and stressing about what comes next. It worked out, but it also made me realize I didn’t want to stay a contractor for much longer.

2021: I turned a corner in 2021, if anything this was a great year because all I accomplished. I racked up certs, worked and felt in my niche. I mean by the end of 2021 I felt like I had really made a little establishment in my new career. On my team my name was synonymous with great work and I knew it, but I also was burning myself out trying to prove that I belong (burnout is real. Imposter syndrome is real. And I will discuss in a later post). I was moving so much I couldn’t even think about slowing down to commit to blogging.

Now: Here we are.

  • I’ve got an awesome mentor
  • Have been motivated to think about branding (which is exciting)
  • I think about where I want to fit into and give back to the infosec community as a whole
  • I got to do a CTF that made me more secure and what type of infosec path I want to be on (more on this later)

All in all I’m ready to commit to this again, but with caveats. This will only be a weekly blog, the calendar I wanted was too much to busy and hectic. This is manageable and it’s good to set boundaries (even with yourself).

In the coming weeks I will also be changing the look of this blog. Thanks to anyone who still reading this and sorry that I left you in the lurch.

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First Thoughts on Capstone Class…

So, this will probably be a short post. I have just started the last class for the bachelor’s part of my dual degree (I know that some will say that going to school for cybersecurity is unnecessary, but I thrive in classroom settings or with direction). I’m antsy about finishing this part of the program. Honestly I’m a slight bit overwhelmed by the work as well. We’re suppose to finish a professional resume, a portfolio, a group project (group projects are the worst and online groups projects are like the 3rd level or hell), and an exam with a java programming portion. Sure, there are 15 weeks to complete all of that so it’s doable, but it’s still a bit nerve wrecking. I’m so afraid of failure it’s not funny. But, it’s better for me to admit that I’m scared than to act like I’m not scared. I just need to keep telling myself that I can do this and take it all week by week.

Wish Me Luck…

FINISH STRONG!